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Living in interesting times

So… I had to go to K-Mart to fill a prescription yesterday, and noticed things were a bit… odd, compared to past visits. Granted, I avoid big chain stores like the plague if I can, so hadn’t been in there in a while, but considering it’s 10 days before Christmas the store was freakishly empty. The garden center off to one side, which usually gets devoted to holiday stuff this time of year, was actually being used for stockroom or for selling bulk items. (I didn’t go in, but could see that there were cases of water and toilet paper stacked up) There were sales fliers tacked to many shelves advertising a holiday sale with 50% off or more. Before anyone says “what’s weird about that?” what I mean is that they weren’t official K-Mart fliers i.e. glossy white paper with professional looking colored text but rather looked like someone had made up some ads on their computer and printed them on colored copy paper.

After I got my prescription, I stopped at Lowe’s to look for a small live tree — we don’t like the idea of killing a tree just to have it sit in our living room a couple of weeks so usually if we get a tree at all, it will be a live one. Some of you might recall Newton, who traveled all the way from Arizona to Dallas to NC with us. Newton was retired to the freedom of our backyard on London road the year before last; that poor  tree was definitely worse for wear after 4 years in a plastic pot, and we don’t plan on keeping the next one in a pot indefinitely!

Anyway, Lowe’s was pretty dead too; there were no long lines, few people in the aisles, and the outdoor garden center where the live and cut trees were was a ghost town. I thought it was shut down for the night at first, but the doors were open. I was the only living soul out there, most of the lights were dimmed, and I had the unsettling thought (OK, refer back to my previous post about the insomnia; my brain is working in stranger ways than usual) that some serial killer could jump out from behind the potted cypress trees, drag me down an aisle, bludgeon me to death with a fencepost, and do a little dance afterward, and be completely undiscovered.

Seriously, though; in the half hour it took for me to pick out our little tree, not a single person came out of the building to shop for Christmas trees, or for anything else in the garden center. The little stone pine I eventually chose and took home had been marked down twice and there was a 25% off sale that applied on top of that. I didn’t have to wait in line, which I think is a first for that place. I guess it could have been because it was a weeknight, but usually even on weekdays and when it isn’t the holiday season those stores are insanely packed.  It was a bit unnerving.

Only in the past few weeks have the powers that be actually admitted that the country is in a recession, (though they now also admit it’s been going on almost a year) and most people figured it out for themselves months ago.  Joy and I have been studying the economic situation hard for a while now, trying to determine our best course of action for the future, and from most of the sources we follow, the consensus is that things have nowhere near reached bottom yet. I think good things (maybe finally the end of the SUV fad?) as well as bad will come out of this necessary contraction, but regardless It’s going to be a rough ride. The title of this post comes from “may you live in interesting times” which is purported to be a translation of a Chinese curse (though I think the origin is unverified) and it seemed appropriate; we are definitely heading into some very interesting times.

Return of the zombie

It might have been noticed that the blog posts have tapered off again recently.  My work schedule has been pretty heavy this past month but mostly it’s because I have been battling the insomnia monster worse than usual. Since I like to try for at least the illusion of coherence in my blog posts, I’ve stayed away from the keyboard except to post a few pictures and links.

Finally, after averaging maybe one good night of sleep a week for the past couple of months or so, my brain began to get scrambled to the point where it affected my ability to think clearly (which could be, like, fatal for someone who spends most of their day driving) so Joy made me I decided I’d better see a doctor to try and get this resolved. I now have some of the ‘happy luna moth ad’ pills from my doctor to try for a few days, and then a other few ideas to try if that doesn’t work. I really hate taking any sort of prescription meds even short term, but nothing else (i.e. meditation, Qigong, exercise, valerian root tea, hot milk, sleepytime tea, melatonin, herbal remedies of various sorts, rearranging the bedroom furniture, and massive quantities of Benadryl) has fixed it so we’ll see.

The doctor kept asking about stress and worry keeping me up, and the funny thing is that is just not a problem any more… anyone who knew me at my last three jobs before this one might find that hard to believe but I really don’t get all stressed out nowadays. It’s partly because my current job isn’t really that high stress at all, but mostly a matter of having finally learned how to manage stress a lot better. OK: for the sake of disclosure I do have to admit I had a relapse of my old ways and totally lost it over that identity theft mess a few months back, but mostly I am pretty laid back. I do worry about things, like the toilet our economy is going down, for instance, but I don’t totally obsess over things I have no control over like I once did… unless I am maybe doing it entirely unconsciously? I’m not laying awake and fretting over things — hell after all this sleep deprivation I don’t even think I have the attention span or coherence it would take to fret… I’m just…awake. All freakin’ night.

I think the insomnia is from past years of stressful situations and worrying obsessively, and nine months of a cat waking me up every night, so maybe if we can break the cycle I can get back to normal. Incidentally the aforementioned cat issue finally resolved itself a few months ago, but Simon has been starting to yell at night again the past few days… I wonder what the dosage of Lunesta is for a sixteen pound cat?

Video: cat vs. printer

Funny, this isn’t even the first clip like this we’ve seen. Apparently there’s something about printers that some cats just can’t resist trying to kill. Our cats lack the initiative to attack any of the household technology.